(kind of happy, kind of sad... be forwarned... this will probably dampen your day... although, if you look at it differently... it might brighten your day... and some of it will make you smile either way... unless you're a heartless prick... this is based on true events...)


i been away
and it's been so long
but i'm here today
'n' i wrote this song
but i don't know why
you can feel so bad
'n' you sat 'n' you cry
'n' you got so mad
i was goin somewhere
i was not here then
and the times we share
all the things were when
we could, sit under the stars
'n' look up so high
we could, look out past mars
way up, in the sky
but when i'm there and you know
theres not somethin wrong
but you, still wanna go
when i'm back, so long
but i, don't wanna lose you
so i try so hard
and i, don't think i knew you
'n' i bought this card
it says...

hey litttle baby
i missed you so much
of course i missed you
you are like my crutch
i... fall back, you catch me
i... don't know what's wrong
maybe there's somethin deeper
in this song...

i signed it: love me
and sent it to you...
i waited long nights
for it to get through...
maybe it was bad
to try this way...
you thought i didn't care
for more than one day...
and then it got there
and you felt it true...
you understood that i care
so much about you...
and no one understands
what has gone wrong...
there's, somethin in you
that makes me so strong...
i do not understand
exactly why...
maybe in the nights
when i still cry...
i don't know what has happened
and i don't know when...
maybe you can tell me
or we should be friends...
'cause friends they last forever
and i, would never let have to let go...
the things that part us
they would, never have to show...
but then i realize
that could not be...
theres, to much there
to much, inside of me...
friends they are forever
but that doesn't mean...
anything else isn't
just hasn't been seen...
you think you know me
but i, just can't tell...
there are, things i hide
'n' i do it so well...
maybe sometime
when we're all alone...
maybe then those things
they could be shown...
do you ever wonder
what went wrong...
somewhere back in time
before, light was shawn...
what was it that happend
what was way back then...
in the beginning when we
weren't yet friends...
i don't know why the things
i feel right now...
don't make no sence inside
or feel or how...
maybe together
we can understand...
maybe apart we'd have to
make a stand...
against the things that
drove us apart...
against the things that never
hit the mark...
so i went out
i got another card...
one that could say it
finding it was hard...
it said:

hey little baby
do you understand...
all the things i feel
when i'm mad...
the things that hold us
deep inside their hands...
the things are hidden
all across the lands...
hey pretty girl
do you feel the part...
hey pretty woman
you're inside my heart...

i think i picked it
'cause it felt so right...
i knew it felt good
all through the night...
i signed it:

hey little baby
hope you understand...
'n' maybe someday
i can be your man...
- love, me

put it in the mail
and sent it off...
don't think you got it
guess that it was lost...
i really hate that
how it, never works out...
i never understand
the things i feel about...
but maybe someday
when i look real deep...
maybe some night
when i cannot sleep...
i'll think about it
i'll understand...
but, until that day
i can't take your hand...
i don't know what went wrong
i cannot see...
the things that hurt so bad
inside of me...
maybe someday when it
feels so right...
i'll hold you baby,
all... through the night...
until that day
i don't know what will be...
what will have changed
what the future will see...
sometimes it's crystal
and it feels so right...
sometimes it hazes again
before the night...
i went out again,
got another card...
the last one i sent,
i guess i tried too hard...
this one was simple,
but it was still so nice...
second never made it,
but this was still trice...
it said:

hey little lady
do you feel this way...
do you understand
what i feel each day
the things inside me
i don't understand...
but maybe someday
i can take your hand...

it was short,
but made so much sence...
although i don't know
if it was penence...
the last one didn't make it
and i felt so bad...
i signed it:

i miss you baby
hope you understand...
- love: me...

i looked around for you
but did not find...
the you, when i went
the you, i left behind...
then there you were and
it felt so good...
when, i did see you
it felt like it should...
i surpressed my feelings
i looked in your eyes...
tilted my head
didn't show surprise...
i said:

hey pretty baby
i know it's been so long...
how have you been
were you ok when i was gone...

i kept a focus
deep inside your eyes
watched them lower
watched what did demise...
you said:

hey there mister
yes it's been so long...
i hate to tell you
that you're not the one...

my head lowered
i was so damn sad...
all that i understood
all that i had...
just disapeared
and it was gone so fast...
i don't know why some things
they just can't last...
i titled my head
knew not what to say...
i thought a second
bout what it was that way...
i said:

alright baby
guess i understand...
the things inside you
fell out of my hand...
and maybe someday
there'll be someone else...
someone just like you
who feels somethin' else...
i'm not mad at you
but i hurt so much...
sometimes there's things
that i just can't touch..

i went home and i felt
so damn sad...
so much had happened,
it was really bad...
i walked into the door
and then i saw...
right there on the floor
there was a card...

Hey there mister
you've been gone so long...
i hate to say this
but i met someone...
they're not like you
but they're so damn nice...
i'm really sorry,
but i've paid the price...

my eyes were watered
they were full of tears...
couldn't read the bottom
it wasn't clear...
i put it down
and i walked away...
went to my bedroom
grabbed the phone on the way
i almost called you
'cause that's what we did...
when somethin hurt us
and, this sure did...
then remembered what had
just gone on...
i put the phone down
my bed, i laid on...
i tried to forget
everything before...
i fell asleep
and opened another door...
inside i found you
and you understood...
i wrapped my arms around you
where you stood...
at least in dream land
you i still had...
at least in dream land
things they weren't so bad...
when i woke up
i gave you a call...
some guy answered
where i stood, the phone did fall...
i had forgotten about
what went wrong...
i don't really understand
why this went on...
maybe someday
i will understand...
maybe somehow
maybe in this land...
i went to the store
got another card...
this one was harder
and i looked so hard...

Hey pretty lady
i don't understand...
the cards you hid
and they were in your hand...
maybe someday when things are right...
maybe someday, or at least some night...
i'll have a vision,
it will become clear...
right now the end,
feels so damn near...
i hold on,
i will never let go...
i realize
there's always tomorrow...
i hope you're happy
hope this guy works out...
but if he hurts you
imma lay him out...
no one ever said
it'd be this way...
i can never
say that its okay...
i don't want you to feel
that you've done wrong...
just keep it real
and, know that i'm strong...

i signed it

keep yourself safe
and always take care...
if you need me just call
and i will be there...
the things inside me
were beaten down...
some things were hidden
but much has been found...
- love: me...

maybe someday
i will understand...
or maybe someday
i will leave this land...
it doesn't matter
some things just don't change...
sometimes what happens
it just feels so strange...
i really miss you
but i hope you're fine...
i think about you,
yes, all the time...
but i'm lettin go
and i'll be alright...
try not to feel bad,
this was in sight...
i should have held you
and always kept you close...
the next day i got 3 letters
and i, almost...
fell on over and,
hit the floor...
"return to sender"
but the, seals were tore...
at least you read them
or at least would seem...
i reread them to see
what you had seen...
at the bottom of one
you had wrote...

please forgive me
i just don't know...

i cried again,
guess i'm just not strong...
you were the one
that helped me last so long...
but then i found strength
when i read...

i love you baby,
trust me, it's not dead...
something's wrong though
i don't understand...
i wish i did,
i would then take your hand...
but now i'm empty,
and i just don't know...
i'm really sorry
but i have to go...

i went and laid down
went right back to sleep...
at least in dream land
i don't have to weap...
'cause there i have you
and that will not change...
sometimes life is just
so damn strange...
i really miss you
hope that you do know...
but i'm still happy
and i have to go...
know that i'm okay,
and that i'm fine...
know i loved you,
but your hearts not mine...
i understand,
but i don't feel this way...
i just wish
that you could stay...
maybe someday
whem i'm all alone...
you will call me sometime
on my phone...
and i will smile again
feel so good...
things will be again
just as they should...
hope you're happy
and you're doin okay...
i signed this letter
and sent it today...
- Love: me...